NFB: Random mumblings

My daughter played her first soccer game today and was a bit sluggish, which had me wondering if her thyroid is out of whack again. I will monitor her closely and see if I need to take her back to her doctor's for another blood panel and check-up. She's been on the Levoxyl medication for Hypothyroid (25 mcg/day) for a while now and it seems to help. Her last levels were checked in mid-August and she was finally normalized, but with how sluggish she was at her game today, it's something that has me concerned.

My husband is using this time now to work on his truck as winter is just around the corner. The reason he bought the thing was so we would have something reliable to drive in the snow. You see, my truck is only 2wd, and the tires spin on ice and snow. I will be getting snow tires more than likely, especially considering I am on a job hunt and had an interview yesterday. I am hopeful I can find work soon so I can put some much needed work into my truck, pay off some debts and start saving for my 11th year reunion in Vegas next August (which I am hoping will double as a honeymoon for my husband and I since we never had one- next August makes 10 years together for us, a huge anniversary!). Anyhow, so he used today to work on his truck and my daughter and I were stuck at home bored out of our minds. We got outside and I walked around as she rode her bike, but I was so restless today, and I don't quite understand why.

Next month is my birthday and already people are asking, "What are you doing? Are you excited?", I keep thinking, how can I be excited when it puts me one year closer to 30? Wow, when did I become so negative in life? I don't think it's negativity as much as it is just a realization that I am not getting any younger and can feel it physically as well. My teenage years were slow going. My 20's flew by! I am trying to look at my 30's as a new chapter in my life- one of growth, wisdom and learning. I know that some of my viewpoints have changed over the past couple of years and I believe mostly that is due to being a parent, but still...could it be age as well? As for my birthday, I have no plans, I just don't really celebrate it. My husband will take me out to dinner and buy me a cake or something, but I don't really have parties anymore. I haven't had a "party" since I turned 25 (which was fun!). Maybe I'll have a party when I hit 30. Who knows? I wonder if that is the way my parents felt when they hit 30. I know when my mom hit 40 she would tell me that she was 37 and that's where she was staying for the rest of her life. My mom will be 50 next year as well. We're almost exactly 20 years apart. As we both get older though, our bond becomes stronger, and that's something I am grateful for.

And I remember when turning 21 was so cool. I spent it dealing with morning and all-day sickness because I was pregnant with my daughter. It was still a great time though. I'll never forget how I went to a club, 6 weeks postpartum (after a c-section, mind you) in heels, dancing. I wish I had that energy again! Hah!