It's that kind of day...a Monday, nevertheless

As most of you know I started a new job 6 months ago (today!). It's a wonderful company to work for but I will say it again- customer service is a hard department to work for. Any naysayers who think it takes no brain and no education might want to trade spots with me for a day. When you have unhappy customers and providers to deal with, it can make for rough sailing. Today was just one of those days where I felt like I wanted to bang my head into my desk. Plus there are changes in our quality assurance and everything which are understandable, but lately it's been challenging for a lot of us to deal with, so needless to say, it's been somber and our morale has been lowered due to it. We all push on though.

That coupled with the fact that I just don't care anymore. I just don't want to go to the chiropractor, or run the bazillion errands I have to run after work. Why can't I just come home directly from work for once? Seriously- I have something going on every day of the week after work and it's annoying. I must say it's gotten to the point where I don't even have three days out of the week that I can go to work out because there just is not time. Yeah, I know what you're thinking- Make time. And to that I say- pfft. No offense, but really- I had someone tell me that once and it took every fiber in my being to not tell the person to STFU because I am so burnt out it's not even funny.

There is a bright side to this story- my husband is finally on day shift and I'm shifting some of this burden onto him, whether he likes it or not. And he can complain all he wants- but I've been doing it all on my own for years, and it's his turn to help out now.

All this, and I can honestly say I can't friggin wait for Labor Day weekend when we get away from all of this! I am taking that Friday off too which will be great!

My week

last week was stressful. The first three days of work went terribly wrong, I had to deal with some problematic issues and by the end of the day I was just exhausted. I decided to ask if I could possibly take Monday off as a personal day, and I was allowed, which I really needed. So tomorrow I will go work out as normal and then go get adjusted by my chiropractor. Hopefully relax a bit too!

It's times like those that remind me that I need to take a step back. Right now I am feeling incredibly overwhelmed with everything I am doing. I feel like there are not enough hours in the day to achieve everything I want to achieve, and it leaves me with little energy by the end of the day, more so lately than ever. You would think that with my exercise routine for the past two months, the better diet and vitamins that I would have more energy, but honestly, I feel even more drained. I don't know what it is, but there's something I need to step back from. The chiropractor wants me to come in 3x/week but it's at the point where I just cannot do it anymore. I'm going to tell him regardless of my re-examination, I'm cutting it down to 2x/week. I just do not have the energy or time and I understand that I need to have my back and neck re-aligned, but at what cost? My sanity? All I want to do is go home and relax. I usually go to the chiro then go work out, by the time I get home it's almost time for my husband to leave for work, then my daughter gets home within a half hour of him leaving, and I have to peel myself off the couch to get dinner started, and help my child with her homework. I don't know what is wrong with me. I expect more energy by now. Yes, I realize that getting up at 3:30am every morning is taking a toll on me, but to avoid the cost of afterschool care and to be here for my child, I have to continue to do it. I think when our supervisors do another shift alignment I will be asking to be switched to the 6am shift instead. Getting up at 4:30am isn't nearly as bad as getting up at 3:30am. Maybe it's just my shift. I don't know.

I just don't understand why I'm so exhausted and have such little energy despite the doctor care and diet/exercise.